Please understand this, I have been to church since February. I’ve lifted my arms in praise to God, sworn to revamp my life, to rededicate my life to Him, but when I get home, I just lose it. It doesn’t seem as important, it’s not something I need to do. What I need to do is get paid better so I can move out, get my own car, live the life I want, be the person I want to be: being with friends, changing the church, working with youth, helping people out, loving and serving freely. (more…)
Posts Tagged ‘God’
Everything Is Wrong
Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009
I know it’s been awhile since I’ve written anything. My life has really slowed down…basically come to a screeching hault. I’m not happy, I’m not sad. I’m not busy, I’m not bored. I just am. My days lately have been me lying in bed, and my nights have been me watching TV and working. I haven’t been to church in three weeks. I haven’t read my Bible consistently in a long time, probably since February. I guess that’s when everything fell apart. I haven’t been angry at God, I just haven’t cared for God like I should, I guess. It seems like everytime my life really starts to fall in to place, like I’m actually growing up and living, God sees fit to take that away, and throw me back into this monotonous routine of work and sleep.
Disgraced Sparrows
Thursday, December 25th, 2008
Merry Christmas! It’s so hard for me to say that, with the weather here in Florida being Spring-like. Eighty degree weather in December is lame, quite literally. But anywho, it is Christmas, the day we recall the “birth” of our Savior. God coming down to us in human form is quite astounding. Have you ever wondered why Jesus came to Earth as a man? Yes, there had to be payment for the sins of the past, present, and future world, but why did God come down to Earth? I mean He’s God right? He can do anything He wants. He could’ve made a guy just appear in the desert, have him tempted a couple of times, and the have him unjustly tried and killed right? That would’ve made much more sense to me; He wouldn’t of killed His own son, it would’ve been a few weeks (maybe months) rather than 33 years for God’s purpose to be fulfilled. That seems a lot better to me. But God wants to dwell among us, to be trusted, to be loved, to be desired, to be here, to be our friends. And yet God is not like us. Yes we are made in His image, but He’s God and we’re not, so inherently there will be differences. So how could God be with us, and be so different? The answer is Jesus. Let me tell you this story.