Posts Tagged ‘sorrow’

Nerve { Feel Everything }

Saturday, September 5th, 2009

I started a series not too long ago called Undiscovered Love. This series was to contain letters, poems, confessions, etc to my wife and/or family. My original plan was to post letters of happiness and joy and satisfaction here on YourBro, while stories and letters of forgiveness on my other site ForgiveMyLife.com. At some point along the way, I began to feel like ForgiveMyLife wasn’t really doing what I had envisioned it doing (spin-off of fmylife.com), but I still wanted to have a site full of emotion and feelings. And thus, Nerve came to being.

What is a nerve? Or a better question, what is the nervous system’s responsibility? To feel and respond. We all have nerves; our nerves keep us alive. Without our nerves, we would unknowingly destroy our bodies. In the same way, without emotions, we would unknowingly destroy our lives. If you think about it, the times you feel most alive are when your emotions are skyrocketing, good or bad (happy or sad). So why do we thicken our nerves? Why do we not trust our nerves, our emotions? They make you feel alive!

I’m re-reading “Feel” by Matthew Elliott, and man, this guy is hitting a lot of points that I wholly agree with. One thing he says that really hit me, is that one of the reasons we develop addictions, is because we no longer feel the things we should feel. We protect ourselves from pain and sorrow, or allow society’s rules to constrain our deep feelings of joy. What foolishness. God intends us to live fully, to live eternally. In our pursuit to control or restrain our passions and emotions, we are condeming ourselves to living embodiments of dullness. Wake up and live! Let your emotions feel, let them grow, let them burst, and respond to what you’re feeling! Show excitement, show joy, show pain, show anxiety! Live! Feel!

This is what Nerve is about: to express and discuss and reveal emotion. To encourage you and myself to feel, to live wildly and full of passion! The church is guilty of teaching us that emotions are evil and not trustworthy; what can we trust if not our emotions?! God is emotion, that is what indefinitely defines Him. God does not control His emotions, why should we? Draw close to God, and you will live a life full of emotion and wonder!

Let your nerves feel! Feel everything.

You can check out (and read more about) Nerve by going to nerve.yourbro.com.

The series Undiscovered Love and future posts of emotion will be on Nerve, while ForgiveMyLife.com will undergo renovation and become a depository of anonymous confessions and requests for forgiveness.

Undiscovered Love

Saturday, July 18th, 2009
This morning I woke up (at 1:30 am) with a great, well what I think is a great idea. I will be starting a series of posts called Undiscovered Love. This series will consist of letters, poems, etc that are addressed to my wife (obviously in the future, but sometimes as if present). The letters and poems that are of forgiveness, confession, compassion, and sorrow and pain will be posted on the daughter site ForgiveMyLife.com, while all others (letters of love,  joy, comfort, etc) will be posted here on YourBro. But don’t worry, you’ll see links to the articles on FML here on YourBro, so you can keep up with both.

I’m really excited about this series. Please feel free to comment on the letters and poems. I hope that this awakens something within you and/or that you understand the love of God and that we should have that same love for our spouse.

You will be able to find all posts in this series in the category Undiscovered Love. Check back soon! Or keep an eye on my Facebook…there’ll be links posted there as well.

I Cry

Monday, March 9th, 2009

in the midst of it all
when we walk the darkest alley
as we stand before the tallest building
standing in the middle of a tempest storm
wandering in the thickest forest
You are there, in the midst of it all

i cry

in the place we call home
when we walk down the hall
as we stand before our closest friends
standing in the middle of a warm kitchen
wandering in the secret garden
You are there, in the place we call home

i cry

in the busiest workplace
when we walk to the bathroom
as we stand before the board of directors
standing in the middle of a presentation
wandering in the maze of cubicles
You are there, in the busiest workplace

i cry

in the craziest school
when we walk to the classrooms
as we stand before the student body
standing in the middle of a gang
wandering in the packed halls
You are there, in the craziest school

i cry

in the quietest of sanctuaries
when we walk to the altar
as we stand before the cross
standing in the middle of a thousand candles
wandering in the our once strong faith
You are there, in the quietest of sanctuaries

i cry

God if there is one thing i know
it is that You are always there

i wish i knew more, life would be easy
if everytime i could make good choices
then i would not feel pain or sorrow
oh how wonderful that would be
a life full of joy and happiness

but then i remember Your command
to consider it pure joy when i face trials
that tests produce perseverance
and if i let perseverance finish its work
then i shall be mature and complete
not lacking anything

oh how hard it is to smile
oh how deep this feeling dives
oh how far i have wandered from You
oh how my heart longs to be restored

i cry, be my strength when i am weak
oh Lord, have mercy on me please
i cry in your arms now
i lift my hands, and cry